Having a total mental meltdown definitely has its perks, yep that's right, a breakdown is a positive thing. When your in the midst of that maelstrom of madness comes the renewal of your centre of being.
For so long I've been adrift from my core beliefs that I couldn't recognise anything of worth or value in myself. I constantly needed to validate my worth by the reactions of others yet even then I could only comprehend that any positive validation was merely pity and therefore not a reliable measure. Fucked up right?
I'm working with a fantastic psych fairly intensively and I'm re-learning who I am, who I really am not who I perceive myself to be.
The good thing is I'm learning to like who I am but at the same time my heart is bruised, how did I become so lost?
Now if only I could find those damn breadcrumbs